Have you ever had those feelings that something great was going to happen, and when it does, you look back and realize that you never really thought it would actually happen? Now, take that scenerio, and put it in terms of love. In other words, did you ever have feelings for someone that you wanted returned, then if and when it is returned, you think to yourself, "honestly, can this be happening?" That is how I feel right now. I am not exactly sure if the feelings are returned in as much depth as my own, but I do feel that they are returned in one form or the other. How, dearest Deviants, could I tell this person that I think I am falling for, that I like him in a way that won't ruin a friendship if he doesn't return the feelings, and yet, will help a new relationship blossom into something magical.

I asked my friends and I keep getting different feedback. One of my friends told me to just come out with it, whilst the other told me to stay in the game; keep playing hard to get until he comes to me. I am just so tired of playing games, and I want to come out with it now. I want to put my worries to the side and find out for sure if there is the slightest chance that he and I could become more than just friends. The only problem is, though, that I am definitely not super model material and I am afraid of him judging my girlfriend potential by the way I look. I am a rather hefty lass, but am doing my best right now to drop the pounds so that I can be healthy, happy, and HOT! What do you people think? I need some advice from strangers, because advice from those I know only makes it worse since there are so many different points of view to look at. I don't know what to do any more. I want to be in a relationship again, so I have someone to cuddle and love on...but I don't know if he feels the same way. I fear rejection above all things, and the mear thought of losing a great friend like him just because I opened my big mouth scares me. Oh what, oh what do I do?!